trans-kool-aidIf things are not called by their right names, language departs from truth. When language departs from truth, nothing can be done well.

When nothing is done well, good practices and good music fall by the wayside. When these are gone, justice is unequal and unfair.

When justice is broken in this way, the people feel afraid and stuck.

Therefore, the wise person uses right words and calls things by their right names; and also makes sure that in response to these words, the right things are done. Let these words be true.
– K’ung-fu-tze (Confucius), around 2500 years ago



Biology According to men and women who mimic stereotypes of appearance and behavior of the opposite sex: Biology is an antiquated and highly “transphobic” mish-mash of lies and severe errors that in the present context works oppressively to “invalidate trans identities.”

According to everyone else: Biology is a wide-ranging classificatory system and body of knowledge; which, though evolving over the course of centuries, has nevertheless not changed in its assessment that females are females and males are males; and that one cannot become the other.

Cis Term invented by transgender activists to stigmatize women and men not afflicted with the false fixed idea that they are members of the opposite sex.
Cis-sexism Male mimickers of femininity perceive “cis-sexism” in every context where it is impossible for men to obtain or purchase basic realities and common themes of women’s lives. (For example,  menstruation and pregnancy). They are primarily concerned with elements of women’s lives (or elements perceived so) that hold erotic charge for them.
Deadnaming When jumping aboard the transwagon, female impersonators and women mimicking men may enforce “gender” stereotypes by changing their names to match those stereotypically used by the other sex. Failure to address a transphile by his or her new name is dramatically described as “deadnaming,” deemed a violent and horrific type of abuse, perhaps even more deadly than “misgendering.” For example: Bruce Jenner changed his name to “Caitlyn.” Bruce is now his “deadname” because according to the transcult, Bruce is now dead. Like a larval worm, he has been superseded by a more glamorous insect. Anyone deadnaming “Caitlyn” by calling him Bruce is literally killing him.
Detransition Ceasing mimicry of sex role stereotypes that was performed with the goal of convincing others that one is a member of the opposite sex. See also “Transition.”
Die in a fire (DIAF) Expression commonly used by female impersonators to intimidate women who refuse to comply with their narcissistic demand for “validation.”
Gaslighting An important strategy for enforcing population-level compliance with transgenderism or other new ideologies, promoted through the mass media, government, kids’ schools and biased, agenda-driven “science.” Through constant, repetitive hyping of lies, large sectors of society begin to feel like they’re going crazy, doubting and disbelieving what they know very well to be true, and making efforts to accept the outrageous lies.

Also refers to the efforts of transgender individuals to convince everyone in their lives that they are really (and have always been) the opposite sex. Especially common when married men decide to destroy their families in order to “transition.”

In some cases of so-called “transgender” children, refers to parental indoctrination of these kids in the notion that the girl is really a boy, or vice-versa.

Gender “Femininity,” “masculinity.” Sex role stereotypes prescribed over thousands of years by male-dominated societies (including female “token torturers”) worldwide as a primary way to control the bodies and minds of women, and often kill them.
Gender confirmation surgery
Horrific, experimental, massive and unnecessary surgical butchery and removal of healthy organs. A means to ensure that patients will spend their inevitably shortened lives under medical surveillance and supervision. An ideology based on the notion that with money and health insurance, one can purchase the “right body parts.” Advertised by transgender activists as “the basic health care they need to survive.

In females: Removal of breasts, ovaries, uterus, fallopian tubes. Possible fashioning of a fake “penis” through use of flesh from other parts of the woman’s body.

In males: Removal of testicles; de-fleshing of penis and inversion within body cavity so that it vaguely, very superficially resembles a woman’s genitals. However, it is merely a hole without any function but for another man to put his penis inside. It never properly heals and requires lifelong “dilation.” Also, “facial feminization surgery” and breast implants.

In the USA and some other high-income countries, these expensive, unnecessary surgeries are typically covered by health insurance. (Meanwhile, eyeglasses, dentistry, drugs for treating legitimate health conditions are often not covered.)

Gender dysphoria In nearly all “transgender” males: A symptom of obsessive sexualized narcissism.

In women: A symptom of internalized misogyny and sometimes internalized homophobia.

Psychologists and doctors focus on “treating” these symptoms, while ignoring (or not even thinking about) the actual condition at the root of the symptoms.

In children: An indication that parents may not have accurate information about their child’s “feelings” & behavior and are being told lies by psychologists or medical professionals. In some cases a sign that one or both parents may have Munchausen Syndrome by Proxy, “borderline personality disorder” or just extreme narcissism, and are abusing their child.

In medical practice: “Feelings” and ideas that a child may have about actually being the opposite sex, as diagnosed through conversations with such children and their parents. Currently deemed unethical for clinicians to disagree with the child or to propose any alternative approaches to immediate “transition” – this is considered to be “conversion therapy” and essentially a “hate crime.” Indeed, it is now “medically necessary” to encourage and support such childish feelings and incorrect ideas, and it is not permissible to examine the possibility of attention-seeking personality disorders in children’s parents.

Adults may simply announce to the world that they have gender dysphoria.

Trans ideology requires that gender dysphoria be treated very aggressively, as early as possible, with drastic surgeries and lifelong off-label use of dangerous drugs – especially in children. Gender dysphoria is also a framework for billing health insurance companies.

Gender identity In men: An “erotic target location error.” In plain English this describes the result of several months or years performing endless secretive rituals of masturbatory self-hypnosis to develop a “female gender identity.” Invented by men to serve as a narcissistic excuse or alibi to conceal embarrassment about their sexualized dress-up sessions and subsequent public display of fetishistic fantasy.

In women: A discomfort with and resistance to prescribed sex role stereotypes (“gender”) without having knowledge that compliance with such stereotypes is totally optional.

In adolescents: Often indicates that the youth has received programming in school that manipulates common adolescent insecurities about body-image or sexuality by falsely teaching that people can change sex and that it’s totally fine if they want to do it. (Note: Such programming is now common in USA schools, as part of “comprehensive sexuality education.“) May also indicate that the youth has visited social media web sites where adult activists lurk with the goal of convincing confused young people that they are “really trans.”

In children: A sign that pathetic (or hapless) parents and devious doctors are filling the child’s consciousness with all sorts of harmful nonsense and lies about their bodies being “wrong,” when the child merely does not wish to comply with sex role stereotypes or is just confused. “Innate gender identity” propaganda in mass culture deploys example of supposed “trans kids” to help adult males elide embarrassment, as described above.

Hormone replacement therapy (HRT) Dangerous chemical drug regimens, mischaracterized as “hormones,” that permanently destroy a healthy body’s natural endocrine balance and grievously distort its appearance. In both sexes, use of such drugs brings danger. Males taking “estrogen,” for example, may have as high as 40 times the normal risk of stroke. Women taking “testosterone” also face a greatly elevated risk of heart attack or other serious cardiovascular events. Nevertheless, the transgender cult/industry deems it wise to start children as young as 12 or 13 on lifelong regimens of these drugs.
Intersex An excuse primarily used by men mimicking femininity to suggest that their predilection for the color pink, or desire to buy many pairs of cute shoes, has its basis in a hypothesized rare genetic disorder of sexual development, supposedly making them “intersex,” but which has never been diagnosed. They claim this in an effort to pretend that their desire to mimic feminine stereotypes is not based on masturbation fantasies. A parasitic co-opting of attention from people who really do have such conditions.
Menstruators Because men mimicking feminine stereotypes have narcissistic rage at the bleak injustice of their inability to menstruate, and because they perceive “invalidation” and unfairness in this biologically determined distinction of males from females, they have convinced some in society’s “progressive” sectors to characterize real women as non-women. If it is really necessary to speak of such appallingly “cis-sexist” topics as menstruation, the trannies say, media and organizations targeting women should refer to real women in these contexts as “menstruators.” This way the trannies can continue to be the center of attention as (fake) “women,” while “menstruators” are relegated to the fringe. See also “Cis-sexism.”
Misgender To speak accurately and correctly in describing men as male and women as female. Perceived as a life-threatening attack by transgender enthusiasts. In the context of male femininity-mimickers, often results in suicide threats or a towering tizzy of transgender narcissistic rage.
Narcissistic rage Disproportionate “overkill” response of anger by males in reaction to any type of “invalidation” of their “gender identity.”
Not really transgender Response invariably given by male femininity-mimickers when confronted with evidence that one of their own is a vicious murderer, pedophile rapist or other type of depraved criminal.
Progressive People who are eager to believe and promote the most ridiculous, absurd, cooked-up, anti-scientific fantasy dogma if it makes them appear to be kind, compassionate persons concerned with the latest trends in “social justice.”
Puberty blockers Toxic drugs used to treat certain cancers in adult patients but used experimentally in small children to stop them from going through puberty, permanently sterilize them and ensure their compliance on the one-way train to transsexuality. Also to enhance the likelihood that their bones will be severely damaged within a few years. Without these drugs, most children stop saying they are the opposite sex; but with them, all continue.
Suicide Empty threats of “suicide” constantly made by narcissistic female impersonators in an effort to extort and manipulate non-trannies. Anecdotal suicide “statistics” similarly used to manipulate society.

Interestingly, real statistics from hyper-progressive Sweden show much higher suicide rate in trannies of both sexesafter they have had their body-mutilating surgeries. Never discussed: Does this high suicide rate reflect profound regret at having taken the tranny path, and perceived inability to live a good life? Quite possible, given the near-total denial of “detransition” by the trans cult and WPATH.

Tranny Short form of “transwoman,” i.e. man mimicking feminine stereotypes. Self-referential term invented by male trannies some decades ago. Around 2015 they suddenly decided it was derogatory and attempted to stop its use through threats of suicide or in bouts of narcissistic rage. A common term used by ordinary people to describe trannies.
Transgenderism A cult-ish ideology based on the notion that males can have “female brains,” and that despite having XY chromosomes, male secondary sex characteristics, decades of male privilege & socialization, not to mention long histories of physical, sexual, economic or emotional violence against women, men can become women. According to this dogma, a man needs only to declare himself to be a woman – indeed, he can declare that he has always been a woman. And if he does this, the whole world must be compelled to play along with his fantasy.

Also applies to women who believe they can become men, with the ideology reversed in focus. The ideology was developed by men, however, and as there are far more men mimicking femininity, they are its primary proponents.

Transgenderism is a multifaceted means of exterminating women and girls. Among other approaches, through making “female” a meaningless term, just a “self-identity” that a man may choose as his object of masturbation and public display; and through legislating opportunities for males to attack or kill women in spaces where women should expect some safety and privacy from men.

There is no such thing as a “transgender” person. There is only obsessive mimicry of appearance and behavioral stereotypes pertaining to the opposite sex. It is accompanied by the mistaken belief that this mimicry means one has actually become a member of the opposite sex.

Transition Does not exist. No-one actually “transitions” to the opposite sex.

Term actually describes dress-up and role-play that mimics traditional sex stereotypes for appearance and behavior of the opposite sex. Often accompanied by medicalized processes of self-mutilation through lifelong regimens of dangerous “hormone” drugs and unnecessary major surgeries to remove healthy organs.

Transman A woman mimicking “masculine” stereotypes and mistakenly believing she is a man.
Transphobia Does not actually exist, in the victimized sense aggressively promoted by transgender activists. However, it does serve to describe the reasonable fear that women and men may have of an outburst of “transgender narcissistic rage” by men mimicking feminine stereotypes and feeling “invalidated.”
Transwoman A man mimicking feminine stereotypes and mistakenly believing he is a woman.
Validation The sine qua non of transgenderism, especially in males mimicking femininity. Also known as “narcissistic supply.” These female impersonators absolutely crave “validation.” Their perceived “acceptance” by women in restrooms – in other words, when women make a fake smile, leave quickly and don’t have them ejected – is seen to be a high form of validation. Any time a normal man holds open a door for a female impersonator; or a store clerk refers to him as “Miss” or “Ma’am” – he finds this to be excellent validation.

On the other hand, if anyone should dare to question his “womanhood” – or call him “sir,” or “he,” or “him,” even unintentionally: this “invalidation” of his “gender identity” will likely draw his narcissistic rage.

WPATH “We Put Anyone on Tranny Hormones.” Also known as the “World Professional Organization for Transgender Health,” this sleazy organization’s self-serving transgender “health” guidelines are considered by stupid or crooked doctors to be authoritative and legit. WPATH is composed of delusional transgender activists and their enablers in the transgender cult & industry, including pharmaceutical corporation kingpins, physicians, psychologists, social workers and academic researchers. They are funded by pharmaceutical companies and tranny billionaires.

This is a list of their pharmaceutical industry sponsors for their 2003 annual conference (with the organization’s previous name). They no longer provide these lists. Can you imagine how the situation must be by now? Click to enlarge.

WPATH funders 2003
WPATH funders 2003

Swedish woman systematically destroys the “gender identity” lie

In the first video, Hanna Lindholm asks questions of students on a Swedish university campus and in so doing, exposes the emptiness of “gender identity.” The second video is an interesting interview with Lindholm on a Swedish radio program. English subtitles in both videos.

Full book: Excellent analysis of male transgenderism

docterNo matter what you call it, transvestism, transgenderism, transsexualism, etc.; and no matter the “stage” at which / on which this sex role stereotyping is performed, this very interesting book by Richard F. Docter shows that in males it is part of a definable trajectory, a clinical course. Docter’s book was published when Blanchard’s research on autogynephilia was still in its early stages, but in my quick review it seems generally to complement his findings.

It is really quite a good analysis of “what makes these men tick.” One of the key points is that for most jocks-in-frocks, a “female gender identity” only develops after years or decades of sexualized cross-dressing. In other words, the notion of “innate gender identity” is a lie. We already knew this (because it is totally obvious) but here is some additional documentation.

small-town-transvestiteThe book is a bit “dated” (1988) and its several nomenclatures distinguishing various “types” of men who attempt to make people think they are women may seem old-fashioned. The tone of the research likely supports sex role stereotypes and may offend modern sensibilities.

As with Blanchard’s, Lawrence’s and Bailey’s work, Docter’s approach is more or less sympathetic to these men. Consistent with the other authors, however, he is honestly trying to understand what is going on in these men’s minds and what kinds of behaviors they manifest. He is not promoting their game-plan for a hostile take-over of women’s bodies and women’s spaces — which is what the vast majority of current researchers in male transgenderism are doing.

I haven’t fully read the book (who could possibly have the stomach for it? — I sure don’t) but I would only suggest that the clinical progression and volume of male transgenderism has accelerated very significantly in recent years.

This book shouldn’t be lost.


Language-policing, “human rights” and transgender sexualized violence

hulking bruisers
Two large, violent men (one a convicted rapist and the other an elite soldier), now fulfilling masturbation fantasies in women’s restrooms.

Transgender activists, especially the female impersonators, obsess about being addressed with the “right pronouns.” Language-policing is almost as important to the bros-in-bras as being allowed to traipse freely through women’s restrooms and other protected spaces. Distracted by politically-correct guilt-tripping about these so-called “human rights issues,” many normal people’s critical thinking shuts down and they lose sight of plain reality: The fact is that these are men with serious mental health problems. Just like these guys:


Cross-dressing sex predator sentenced Transgender “Colleen” Francis exposes himself to little girls in the locker room Rapist Christopher Hambrook
Man in women’s clothes peeps on women Man in women’s clothes assaults woman in restroom Woman killer Thomas “Michelle Renee” Lamb
Sex change killer Maddison Hall Child rapist “Paula” Witherspoon Pedophile Matthew Harks decides he is a woman
Woman killer “Lyralisa” Stevens Torture-rapist Richard “Sherry” Masbruch Rape charge for Twitter exec “Dana” McCallum
Autogynephile rapist Chris Wikels Autogynephile rapist Paul Williams jailed Tranny Sean Gossman, child porn user
Carlos Diaz dresses up & rapes Gavin Scott dresses up & gropes women in shop “Transwoman” child rapist
Angry transsexual murders his therapist Man dressed as Barbie doll assaults woman in restroom Cross-dresser arrested in bath house
Cross-dressing man arrested for exposure at Walmart Stalker sought to become his victims Man in dress exposing himself to kids
Autogynephile attempts to kill woman Child rapist James “Jennifer Katherine” Allard Transgenderist videos in women’s restroom
Rape kit made by male tranny Man in women’s clothes rapes woman Transvestite booked in massacre
Rapist in women’s clothes hunted by cops Man in women’s clothes tries to get women undressed Two men in dresses kill woman, steal her hair
Man in dress assaults women Man in high heels solicits sex from boy Have you seen this cross-dressing pedophile?
Cross-dressing sex offender arrested Man in dress throws concrete at cars Another cross-dressing sex offender jailed
Cross-dresser kills woman in Singapore Dennis “Allison” Woolbert repeatedly raped a young relative Cross-dressing Colonel Russel Williams pleads guilty to murders


Library page of PDF articles about “gender identity” fakeness and autogynephilia reality

Male transgenderists hate knowing what science clearly shows: that an obsessive masturbation fantasy is the root of their “gender identity.”

Contrary to what transgenderite cult members and their crooked enablers say, there is a ton of science to show that “innate gender identity” is fake and that autogynephilia is real. I have previously posted most of these articles and books on various pages of this site but to make them more accessible, I’m going to post them all here on one page. You can download the PDFs from the links.

This is far from “all” the research — there’s plenty more. If there are other articles you’d like to see, I can probably get hold of them and could post them here.



Most important papers:

Other interesting papers:



Narcissistic Pathology and Personality Factors in “Gender Dysphoric” Men

This research could never be published today. It would be seen as extremely “transphobic.” It was actually published in first issue of the “International Journal of Transgenderism” in 1997. It’s just a small cohort study (n=20) but I’ll tell you what, it’s way more solid than any evidence brought forward to date by pro-transgenderism researchers for the existence of an innate “gender identity.” The article is not available in PDF and I’m surprised it is even still up on the journal’s rinky-dink web site. I have added emphases here & there throughout the article. Edit: I just noticed that Stop Trans Chauvinism recently posted this article too!

Hartmann U, Becker H, Rueffer-Hesse C (1997) Self and Gender: Narcissistic Pathology and Personality Factors in Gender Dysphoric Patients. Preliminary Results of a Prospective Study. International Journal of Transgenderism, Volume 1, Number 1, July – September 1997.

Abstract: This paper presents preliminary results concerning the relationship of self and gender in patients requesting or seriously considering sex change. Specific attention is paid on pathological features in regulatory processes of the self-system as well as on personality factors associated with different types of gender disorders. Based on the results of retrospective analyses a prospective study was designed to identify subtypes of gender dysphoric patients based on a scrupulous psychiatric and psychpathological evaluation. The evaluation procedure consists of (i) clinical interviews, (ii) a structural interview according to concepts of Kernberg, and (iii) a set of self-developed and standardized questionnaires. The results indicate significant psychopathological aspects and narcissistic dysregulation in a substantial proportion of patients. Different subtypes of self-(dys)regulation seem to emerge which are discussed with special reference to differential diagnosis and prognostic factors.

Introduction: The two intriguing concepts of self and gender are of major importance for the field of gender dysphoria, but at the same time both are complex and controversial. In recent years, the clinical, etiological, and psychopathological diversity of gender dysphoric patients had to be increasingly recognized by professionals. Looking at the remarkably different gender and developmental backgrounds of individuals with gender problems, many – including DSM-IV – have done away with the term ‘transsexualism’ as a distinct diagnostic category. This nosological shift, however, should be accompanied by improvements in the precision of differential diagnoses and clinical subtyping allowing a better fine-tuning of clinical managment. Existing approaches have mainly been restricted to gender and sexual orientation variables whereas personality and psychopathological factors associated with gender disorders have rather been neglected.

Based on the results of a retrospective analysis of all patients that have consulted our gender dysphoria team at the psychiatric outpatient clinic of Hannover Medical School during a one-year period, a prospective study was designed to identify subtypes of gender dysphoric patients by means of a scrupulous psychiatric and psychological evaluation (Becker & Hartmann 1994). This contribution will concentrate on pathological features in the regulation of the self-system and on some associated personality factors. A number of preliminary empirical results of the first 25 consecutive patients of our prospective study will be presented with a special focus on the results of the psychometric instruments we have employed. Since the number of 5 biological females is too small for statistical comparisons, the data presented here only refer to biological males.

Our preliminary results indicate significant psychopathological aspects and narcissistic dysregulation in most of our gender dysphoric patients. Among biological males different subtypes of self-(dys-) regulation and corresponding MMPI-profiles seem to emerge. Results of the narcissism inventory indicate that of the 4 main dimensions (the threatened self, the traditional narcissistic self, the ideal self, the hypochondriac self) scales covering aspects of the ‘threatened self’ show the most significant deviations while a number of patients do not have a negative body-self. The implications of these results should be considered when thinking about differential diagnoses and prognostic factors.

Materials and Methods

Table 1: ‘Components of evaluation procedure’

Thorough clinical interviews by different team members
Structural interview according to concepts of Kernberg
A set of self-developed and standardized psychometric questionnaires including the MMPI, 16PF, Rosenzweig PFT, Narcissism Inventory, and AGI and CGF by Blanchard.

The main components of our evaluation procedure are summarized in table 1. All patients were interviewed, usually independently by different team members. After that, all patients went through a structured interview – based on concepts of Kernberg (1984) for severe personality disorders – addressing relevant aspects of self-pathology, narcissistic regulation and object-relations. In addition, all patients were asked to fill out a set of both self developed and standardized questionnaires including the MMPI in its short version, the 16PF, the Rosenzweig Picture-Frustration-Study, the Narcissism Inventory (Deneke & Hilgenstock 1989), the Androphilia-Gynephilia-Index and the Cross-Gender-Fetishism scale, both designed by Blanchard (1985, 1989).

Table 2: ‘Sociodemographic data’

All Male-Female
Androphilics(N=10) Gynephilics(N=10)
Mean age (years) 29,9 29,8 29,9
Education years 10,5 10,0 11,0
Marital status all unmarried all unmarried all unmarried
Unemployed (%) 44,0 33,0 56,0

The sociodemographic data show that the mean age of 30 years (range 17 – 45) does not differ in the androphilic and gynephilic groups, which will be compared in most of the following analyses. In the same way educational level and marital status are equal in both groups whereas the vocational situation of gynephilic patients is significantly worse.

Results The results of the other three standardized psychometric instruments will only be touched upon before concentrating on the ‘narcissism inventory’.


Figure 1
Figure 1: The MMPI-Scales

A quick look at the clinical scales of the MMPI shows that overall most scores are above the normal T-value-range of 40 to 60 indicating pronounced psychopathological features for the whole group of our patients. On the other hand, only the MF-scale has values above 70 which of course is no surprise in a sample like this, which also applies to the PD-scale. Looking at the two subgroups, one can see that the scores of the gynephilic patients are clearly higher for the so-called ‘neurotic trias’ of Hypochondria, Depression and Hysteria, the most valid scales of the German version of the MMPI. This suggests that the gynephilic patients of our sample have more neurotic symptoms, especially of the somatization and psychosomatic type and it also shows that emotional problems are expressed in a body language.

Scales of the ’16PF’

Figure 2: The scales of the '16PF'
Figure 2: The scales of the ’16PF’

In the 16PF significant deviations from the normal range – which is marked by the two horizontal lines in figure 2 – can be found in the primary factors C, H, I, O and Q3. This suggests that our gender disordered patients have a significantly lower ego strength, are more emotionally disturbed and have problems in coping with disappointments. The markedly deviant scores in primary factor ‘I’ describe our patients as highly sensitive, with rich inner lives, but also as impatient, demanding, with high expectations and a tendency to avoid responsibilities. Primary factor ‘H’ indicates that the patients of our sample are low in their self-confidence and rather inihibited, cautious and socially introverted. Looking at the differences between our subgroups, one can see that they are of minor importance in this test. The only statistically significant differences or trends are in primary factors ‘L’ (F1,17 = 10.89; p < 0.01) and ‘Q3’ (F1,17 = 3.29; p = 0.08), suggesting that the androphilics have a more sceptical attitude towards other people, try to rely more on their own opinion and have a tendency to be disputatious and resentful. The gynephilics are more spontaneous and guided by momentary impulses and ideas without clearcut future conceptions.

Scales of the ‘PFT’

Figure 3: The scales of the 'PFT'
Figure 3: The scales of the ‘PFT’

The Rosenzweig Picture-Frustration-Test is a well-known semiprojective instrument designed to measure the ways of coping with frustration and aggression. The six main categories of the PFT are depicted on figure 3. Again, the two lines mark the normal range between stanines 4 and 6. Figure 3 shows that for both the whole sample and the gynephilic subgroup all scores are well within the normal range while the androphilics do show some deviations. They are relatively low on category ‘Extrapunitivity’ and high on ‘Impunitivity’ suggesting a strong inclination to evade conflicts and to delude themselves about obstacles or the frustrational character of a given situation. Looking at the three reaction types one can see that androphilics are low on obstacle-dominance and very high on need-persistence which confirms the impression that their need-persistence i.e. their emotional pressure to reach a specific goal is so predominant that the obstacles encountered tend to be denied. The low scores on category ‘Extrapunitivity’ inidicate that their assertiveness, their ability to get their way in a constructive manner is below average. The gynephilic group is significantly lower in need-persistence (F1,16 = 3.87; p = 0.06) and higher in obstacle-dominance (F1,16 = 4.02; p = 0.06). Thus, compared to the androphilics they are well aware of the obstacles in their way and even tend to be blocked by them without feeling the intense urge for a quick solution.

The results of the Narcissism Inventory

The ‘Narcissism Inventory’ (NI) is a questionnaire developed at the Hamburg University Medical School in the 1980ies. It was designed to assess a number of theoretically and clinically relevant aspects of the organization and regulation of the narcissistic personality system. It consists of 163 items belonging to 18 scales which cover a wide range of different modes of narcissistic autoregulation. These 18 scales are grouped into 4 main dimensions according to the results of a factor analysis.

4 dimensions of the ‘Narcissism inventory’

Figure 4: The 4 dimensions of the 'Narcissism inventory'
Figure 4: The 4 dimensions of the ‘Narcissism inventory’

These 4 dimenions are called the ‘threatened self’, the ‘classic narcissistic self’, the ‘idealistic self’ and the ‘hypochondriac self’. On figure 4 the results of these 4 dimensions are depicted for our sample. In interpreting the t-values it must be taken into account that we do not yet possess norms for a normal, non-clinical sample but only for a clinical sample consisting of individuals with diagnoses ranging from psychosomatic disorders and neurotic depression to narcissistic personality. Naturally, this circumstance erects narrow limits to an interpretation referring to the normal population. For the inspection of the scores in this diagram it implies that a t-score of 50 is average compared to a patient sample and scores above 50 can be viewed in our preliminary analysis as a clinically substantial finding.

Figure 4 shows that overall the highest scores can be found in the dimensions ‘the threatened self’ and ‘the idealistic self’, the first indicating a marked instability of the self-system with fluent transitions between an arduously maintained and a progressive decompensation. An analysis of the single scales of the ‘threatened self’ shows high scores in ‘derealization/depersonalisation’, ‘archaic retreat’ and – expectedly – ‘negative body image’. This dimension has significant correlations up to .7 to a number of MMPI-scales such as depression, psychopathic deviate, paranoia and psychasthenia and also to the 16PF-scales emotional disturbance and sensitivity. The value of the dimension ‘the idealistic self’ goes back to high scores in the scales ‘object-devaluation’ and ‘symbiotic self-protection’.

schoolLooking once more at differences between the subgroups the diagram shows that androphilic patients are higher in ‘the threatened self’ and especially ‘the idealistic self’. Among the single scales statistically significant differences can be found in ‘derealisation/depersonalisation’ (F1,18 = 7.23; p < 0.05), ‘archaic retreat’ (F1,18 = 3.39; p = 0.08) and ‘symbiotic self-protection’ (F1,18 = 6.85; p < 0.05), all with higher scores for the androphilics. Gynephilic patients are higher (but not statistically significant) in the dimensions ‘the hypochondriac self’ and the ‘classic narcissistic self’ which is largely due to high scores in the scale ‘narcissistic rage’.

Subgroups of patients according to self-regulatory mechanisms

Using the 4 dimensions of the Narcissism Inventory we have performed a cluster analysis of our cases to see how this statistical procedure groups our patients and to compare this solution to our clinical impression. We have used the Ward algorithm and after a careful analysis of the cluster agglomeration schedule have decided for the 4-cluster-solution. The main features of these clusters were then determined by univariate and multivariate statistical procedures. The main cluster characteristics relating to narcissism are summarized in table 4. The number of cases is small, especially in clusters 3 and 4, allowing only a tentative interpretation but on the other hand all clusters have a good correspondence to our clinical opinion.

Table 3: ‘Main characteristics of clusters’

Cluster 1
Cluster 2
Cluster 3
Cluster 4
Narcissistic pathology primarily in object relations. Severe narcissistic pathology in all 4 dimensions of NI. No narcissistic pathology. Narcissistic pathology only in dimension ‘The hypochondriac self’.
No significant psychopathology. Significant psychophatology and emotional disorders. Marked social isolation and introversion. Tendency for somatization.
Strong need-persistence, denial of obstacles. Strong need-persistence, high impunitivity. Obstacle-dominance high, ego-defense and need-persistence low.

The 9 cases combined in cluster 1 have high scores only in ‘the idealistic self’ which means they have a marked narcissistic pathology primarily in their object-relations. Their prevailing self-regulation patterns indicate that they have a profound fear of being disappointed and hurt by others. To protect themselves against this they tend to emphasize their autonomy and their moral superiority. There is a strong ambivalence between a longing for another person and impulses to avoid and escape any close relationship. The cases of cluster 1 also have a strong tendency to identify themselves with specific highly valued personal ideas, a self-regulation mode serving the purpose to stabilize and protect the self. As you can see from the second slide, they do not show significant psychopathology in the MMPI or 16PF, but in the PFT have a strong need-persistence and tend to deny any obstacles in their way.

The 5 cases grouped into the second cluster have by far the most significant psychopathology, emotional disorders and severe narcissistic dysregulation in all 4 dimensions. In these individuals their auto-regulation-modes are always on the edge of decompensation and the gender dysphoria appears as only one facet in a profoundly disturbed personality.

The two small clusters 3 and 4 differ from the larger clusters in a respectively particular manner. The cases in cluster 3 have no narcissistic and general psychopathology but are socially isolated and introverted, they feel socially unattractive and live more or less in disguise. They have a strong need-persistence, tend to play obstacles or frustrations down and hope that the desired sex change will turn their lives to the better.

The patients in cluster 4 do not seem to have a true gender dysphoria but rather a disturbed body-relation which is more of the hypochondriac, dysmorphophobic or somatization type. Accordingly, they do not reject their body and do not have a negative body-self in the NI. They feel easily blocked by conflicts or frustrations, which seem to be expressed in a body-language.

Conclusion: At this stage, the provisional status of our data only permits some few conclusions. The central findings of this questionnaire analysis support the view of a great heterogeneity of gender disordered males which not only extends to the already well known gender and sexuality variables but also to general personality pathology and especially the different modes of self-regulation. We could identify a significant narcissistic pathology in most of our patients, but the regulation-modes afflicted by this pathology differ widely. The cluster analysis has yielded an interesting and clinically reasonable subtyping of our patients with two larger subgroups of which one is marked by severe narcissistic and personality pathology where the gender dysphoria appears as only one facet in this profound pathology, as a rather desperate attempt at stabilizing a fragmented self. In the other larger cluster there is no substantial personality pathology, but one might speculate that the gender dysphoria is part of a deeper problem in object-relations, for which the transsexual wish probably serves as an imagined solution. The data analysis has indicated that the sexual orientation does account for some variance in our sample, but in a multivariate view it does not seem to be a significant predictor. Thus, by our preliminary analysis the notion that gynephilics have more substantial personality and gender pathology could not be confirmed. However, the complete analysis of our data including the developmental and biographic variables as well as the results of the structured interview appears to be promising and may change this impression.

trannyIn closing, the cumulative evidence of our study so far is consistent with the view that gender dysphoria is a disorder of the sense of self as has been proposed by Beitel (1985) or Pfäfflin (1993). The central problem in our patients is about identity and the self in general and the transsexual wish seems to be an attempt at reassuring and stabilizing the self-coherence which in turn can lead to a further destabilization if the self is already too fragile. In this view the body is instrumentalized to create a sense of identity and the splitting symbolized in the hiatus between the rejected body-self and other parts of the self is more between good and bad objects than between masculine and feminine. The results obtained so far confirm the conviction that we have to maintain a clinical perspective in the field of gender dysphoria and must continue to improve our understanding of this enigmatic and fascinating problems.


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Autogynephiles CULTIVATE their “gender identity” over years or decades of sexualized cross-dressing

transgender woman
“Gender identity”

What does it mean when Bruce Jenner and other heterosexual males, often (though not always) quite “manly” men with solid “masculine” personae, suddenly announce to the world that they are actually “women”; that they have always felt deeply “feminine” inside; that they are now going to “transition” to living as their “real female selves,” and that in fact their “gender identity” is “female”? It means that they have autogynephilia, a male’s propensity to feel sexually turned on by the thought of himself “as a woman” or “becoming a woman.” They are classic autogynephiles.“Gender identity” for them is just an excuse. Here’s how they got themselves a “female gender identity.”

For many years, they have been sexually aroused by the thought of “being women” and impersonating women. Intermittently or occasionally, from a very young age, most of them have secretly put on various articles of women’s clothing, became sexually aroused and then masturbated in response to this dressing-up. Many men collect several pieces of women’s clothing, a “complete outfit” perhaps. Most eventually begin secretly to venture out “en femme,” perhaps to a neighboring town for shopping or a “make-over” at the department store’s cosmetics counter. These expeditions also lead to heavy masturbation, and if any store clerk happens to say “ma’am,” or if no-one throws them out of the women’s restroom, it really puts the icing on the cake. Many of these men enjoy pornography and pornographic writing centered around “forced feminization” fantasies, in which a dominant woman forces a manly man to become a submissive sissy, sometimes even a simpering fellatio expert. The men feel deeply conflicted and guilty about all these antics, and periodically will “purge” all artifacts of transvestism, and vow never to do such things again.

However, because they seldom try to work out what’s really going on in their minds, they come back to it again and again. Since the internet emerged, with all its possibilities for “support” and “networking,” the garden-variety transvestite of yesteryear is gone. A few of these men eventually moved on to full-blown transsexualism. Nowadays, it has become a flood. In many if not most cases, these men are willing to destroy their marriages and shatter their families in pursuit of the paraphilic dream. Dr. Anne Lawrence (himself an autogynephiliac) has written extensively on autogynephilia. In one article, he summarizes some important research findings:

Based on his research with non-homosexual MtF transsexuals and other non-homosexual cross-dressing men, many of whom also develop cross-gender identities of some strength (Docter & Prince, 1997), Docter observed that:

Among our subjects, 79% did not appear in public cross dressed prior to age 20; at that time, most of the subjects had already had several years of experience with cross dressing. The average number of years of practice with cross dressing prior to owning a full feminine outfit was 15. The average number of years of practice with cross dressing prior to adoption of a feminine name was 21. Again, we have factual evidence indicative of the considerable time required for the development of the cross-gender identity.

In short, autogynephilic eroticism, as evidenced by erotic cross-dressing, precedes cross-gender identity by years or decades in non-homosexual MtF transsexuals. These transsexuals do not have female core gender identities nor do they have well developed cross-gender identities that precede and act as the driving force behind their desires to turn their bodies into facsimiles of women’s bodies. Rather, non-homosexual MtF transsexuals gradually develop cross-gender identities after years or decades of erotic cross-dressing, accompanied by the autogynephilic wish to turn their bodies into facsimiles of women’s bodies.

In the past few years, “transgenderism” has become very popular. It is widely celebrated. With all the “support” they find on the web from other hardcore autogynephiles and other transgenderism activists, not to mention the mass media, secretive male transvestites are “coming out” in droves and being put on the fast-track to synthetic “estrogen” prescriptions and possibly gender mutliation surgery. Every aspect of this “transition” is also exciting, and not just sexually — every “ma’am” and every reciprocation of “feminine” gestures by others feels tremendously “validating.” They also DEMAND such validation from everyone else — ESPECIALLY from women.

Question: But how do autogynephiles reconcile this reality: they have enjoyed their lives as men and despite a troubling concern for “femininity” have generally had a coherent and often strong “male” identity. Yet in order to proceed with transsexualization, they are required to claim a lifelong “female gender identity.”

“Gender identity”

Answer: they brood about it endlessly, and cherry-pick various aspects of their lives as clear evidence of actually being “women.” Their period of “questioning” — “should I really transition?” — has much more to do with rationalizing “why they should transition” than why they should not. Their life-narratives inflate the importance of all potential lady-brain indicators — “I had several female friends in childhood!  Cooking is fun! A girl 30 years ago told me I was like a ‘lesbian’ trapped in a man’s body! I once had a pink polo shirt! I enjoy silky fabrics! I love shopping!”

They retroactively invent or exaggerate incidents from their own childhoods that would suggest a “female gender identity.” They are talking themselves into this “identity.” It feels good. It is like self-hypnosis. Let’s call it autogynephilic auto-suggestion.

After a while, with the encouragement of online transgender “friends,” psychological therapists and others with a vested interest in promoting the “gender identity” lie, they begin to exaggerate the depth and intensity of the emotional pain that they have felt through life at “being the wrong gender” — but that’s not really what the pain was about. Everyone has problems, and everyone feels a little or a lot depressed at some points in life. In this process of cultivating their “female gender identities,” the autogynephiles retroactively attribute all painful emotions and hard times they’ve ever experienced to the cruel joke of having been “assigned male at birth.”

This excerpt from a male transgenderist’s blog post is from January 2015. It may serve as a case study in “gender identity.” This is from the blog of a married man, a father of two.

My quandry comes from the fact that unlike a subset of the TG population, I did not know from birth that I felt female—at least not consciously.  I always envied girls in dresses and skirts.  In high school, I secretly slept in my mom’s old slips and altered an old wedding dress by hand to fit me for a Halloween costume.  I sympathized with women and their unique issues.  Most of my friends were girls.  It was a natural fit.  One high school friend once called me a lesbian trapped in a man’s body.  At the time, I thought nothing of it.  Now, it rings in my head.  What did she see that I didn’t?

Over the years, I feel I have suppressed my femininity.  I identified as male, but I secretly felt jealous of women.  I am envious of the ability to have multiple orgasms in a single session.  I want to carry and bear a child despite the 10 months of discomfort and excruciating labor pains at the end.  I love the feel of silk and lace against my skin.  I want to wear dresses and skirts.

Delusional, disturbing. His goal is to “transition”; his wife is unhappy. You can get a sense from this excerpt of how he hypnotically cultivates a “female gender identity” based on the most blatantly paraphilic superficialities you can imagine. [Update, 2016: He has now “transitioned.”]

“Gender identity”

Transgenderism in non-homosexual males as a paraphilic phenomenon

Lawrence AA. Transgenderism in non-homosexual males as a paraphilic phenomenon: Implications for case conceptualization and treatment. Sexual and Relationship Therapy 2009: 24 (2), pp. 188-206.

The concept of autogynephilia provides a theory of motivation for MTF sex reassignment, in that it proposes that nonhomosexual MTF transsexuals seek sex reassignment primarily because they are sexually aroused by (and love) the idea of having women’s bodies and living as women. They want to actualize their autogynephilic fantasies by acquiring women’s bodies (or, more accurately, facsimiles of women’s bodies) through hormone therapy and genital surgery (Blanchard, 1993a, 1993b, 1993c) and by living as women. This theory can be seen as the logical extension of the widely accepted idea that transvestic fetishists cross-dress primarily because they are sexually aroused by (and love) the idea of wearing women’s clothing and impersonating women and want to actualize their transvestic fantasies through crossdressing. The concept of autogynephilia thus provides an answer to the question posed earlier: if the gender dysphoria that nonhomosexual MTF transsexuals experience cannot be attributed to the presence of female- typical behaviors, attitudes or interests, what can it be attributed to? The answer is: the desire of these transsexuals to actualize their autogynephilic feelings and ‘‘become what they love’’ and lust for.

Download article here: Lawrence-2009

“Gender identity” is just an ALIBI to hide men’s embarrassment about their autogynephilia!

transwomanThe overwhelming majority of male-to-fake-“female” transgenderists, probably around 90%, are “late-transitioning” men who are sexually attracted to women. Most of the time, these men report a history of secret cross-dressing since childhood. They usually lead stereotypically “normal” male lives, having “masculine” interests, having wives & girlfriends, fathering children, and seeming like regular heterosexual guys. You would never imagine that they got erotic thrills from dressing up in women’s clothes or fantasizing that they had breasts and vaginas or fantasizing that they were going on a date “en femme” with a handsome (male) stranger. Meanwhile, that’s exactly what’s happening: they’re dressing up in women’s clothes and then masturbating about various “feminine” fantasies.

Men like this used to be called “transvestites.” However, ever since “sex change operations” came along in the mid-20th century, researchers have noticed that a large proportion of men requesting estrogenic hormones and genital mutilation surgery have been these seemingly-normal straight dudes. This tendency has become even more pronounced since the internet appeared around 20 years ago.

These men have autogynephilia. This term was coined by Toronto clinician Ray Blanchard after many years’ experience working with male transgenderite patients. A man with autogynephilia becomes sexually aroused and totally obsessed by the thought of himself “being a woman.” It is an obsessive sexual kink called erotic target identity inversion,” in which men desire to impersonate or turn their bodies into facsimiles of the persons or things to which they are sexually attracted.

The “theory” of autogynephilia is a “theory” in the sense that “gravity” is a theory. It’s not some wild idea cooked up by one guy; it’s a phenomenon that’s been documented extensively by many clinicians, in the stories of men who have come for help about their “gender” confusion.

Although autogynephiles report longtime cross-dressing, nearly all of them will DENY, totally and forever, until the cows come home, that sexual kinks & thrills have ANYTHING to do with their “transition” to their “true feminine selves.”

NO WAY MAN! It’s all about “gender identity”! A woman trapped in a man’s body! You must disregard my apparently happy and successful male life, forget about all those kids I fathered and the women I got pregnant, forget about my male childhood and many decades of male socialization, forget about my normal male reproductive system and other normal male secondary sex characteristics, forget about my XY chromosomes, forget about my utter disregard throughout life for women’s rights or health or safety or well-being (and of course forget my physical, sexual, emotional, economic and other violence toward women!); forget about all of that stuff! No!!1!!1!! In reality I have always actually been a woman! I like the color pink!  I have always enjoyed shopping! Imagine how I have suffered since I was “assigned male at birth” by evil doctors. And don’t you DARE suggest there is anything abnormal or kinky or erotic about me being a woman! I will DESTROY you if you even suggest such a thing! I’m a completely normal woman, and quite a good-looking one at that! You had better not “mis-gender” me either, or I’ll kick your ass and then sue you!

22743951406_6bf5114f4d_oThat about summarizes what most male transgenderites will say if you have the temerity to suggest they have autogynephilia. They also deny that the autogynephilia even exists, or if it does exist, it’s only in a few fetishists — not “women” like themselves. They dismissively say that the notion of autogynephilia was “disproven long ago,” or that it’s just some crackpot idea that “harms transwomen.” They are like cult members. They RAAGGGEEE and make death threats. And they do in fact try to destroy the lives and careers of anyone who dares to say the obvious, that dressing up as fake “ladies” turns these guys on sexually.

“Gender identity” is just an ALIBI these men use to hide an embarrassing sexual obsession! Science shows that a “female gender identity” only develops in these men after many years or decades of sexualized cross-dressing! Indeed, this “gender identity” is really just a type of self-hypnosis: Auto-erotic auto-suggestion.

But: Let’s see what these men actually say about their own experience and behavior. In public, male trangender activists will deny that this is autogynephilia or that it has anything to do with their mimicry of “feminine” stereotypes, drastic genital mutilations and dangerous hormone intoxication.

From Anne Lawrence’s book, reporting narratives of anonymous transgenderite men who admit they get turned on by imaging themselves “as women”  — these are just a few of the several hundred men interviewed:

  1. I am 58 years old and a preoperative MtF transsexual. I began crossdressing when I was about age 7. I was especially sexually aroused wearing girdles and nylon stockings. By my mid-20s, I had very strong desires to dress as a female on a full-time basis and to attract attention as a sexy, feminine woman. I have worn sexy feminine fashions, especially bras, lingerie, pantyhose, short dresses, lace fashions, mini-skirts, high heels, etc., at home since my mid-20s. Wearing sexy lingerie, a bra, a girdle with nylon stockings or sensuous sheer pantyhose, and high heels, imagining myself as a female, still often sexually arouses me, leading to an erection, masturbation, and orgasm.
  2. I am a transgender woman currently undergoing estrogen treatment. The fact that my body is feminizing is both a source of arousal and joy. My earlier “closet” phase involved the ritual of dressing as a normal woman: lingerie, nylons, dresses, shoes, etc., and applying full makeup and perfume and becoming so turned-on by my femme image in the mirror that the ritual often terminated in masturbation.
  3. I began cross-dressing shortly after puberty in my older sister’s clothes. Later, I would occasionally borrow one of my wife’s dresses when she was out of town. I would always fantasize about women and assuming the role myself when dressed. And it was always an erotic experience. I have come to realize that for me, being a cross-dresser has not merely been the activity of a transvestite, but of a transsexual. The clothes themselves are but an adornment that allow me to take on the intended role. Just as “clothes make the man,” I feel they make the woman as well. A skirt or dress, because of its very construction, makes a woman vulnerable, which is a female attribute.
  4. Wearing women’s clothing and feminizing my body has always been sexually exciting for me. Also, it was and still is sexually exciting for me to have female body functions. Before my sex reassignment surgery, I would pretend to menstruate by urinating in sanitary pads. I particularly enjoyed wearing the old-fashioned belted pads with long tabs.

Sound like someone you’ve heard about? Remember the part when Bruce describes being “caught” in his daughter’s bedroom? Disgusting, isn’t it.

These kinds of experiences are COMMON to all heterosexual men who claim to have “gender dysphoria” or to “identify as a woman” (sic). Yes, Bruce Jenner and all the rest. If you have a strong stomach, check out some of this disturbing autogynephilic insanity!

There are thousands of videos like these on the internet.

There is an epidemic of autogynephilia going on. It is completely real and nearly all male transgenderites have it, no matter how angrily they deny it, no matter how many internet posts they make saying “it was de-bunked long ago” (sic). A huge amount of evidence shows that most male transgenderists get a sexual thrill out of dressing up, out of being “perceived as a woman,” out of using women’s toilet facilities, out of replicating every kind of “feminine” stereotype and then insisting that everyone else play along. But they are deadly embarrassed to admit it!

Only in RARE cases will they ever admit it. An example of one honest autogynephile who admits it: Dr. Anne Lawrence is a male transgenderist autogynephile who lives “as a woman.” Dr. Lawrence has done much to keep autogynephilia in the public eye and in scientific discourse. This is really great and is a real service to people who are interested in reality. However, he is also part of the transgenderism/medical industry and believes wholeheartedly in the medicalized (surgically and hormonally mutilated) transgenderist lifestyle. I am glad for his work, but I hope he snaps out of it and sees the complete insanity of the autogynephile-driven research agenda, autogynephile-driven health policy-setting efforts and autogynephile-driven clinical practice.

Autogynephilic transgenderism is an example of men thinking that by obtaining “female body parts” and by replicating patriarchal stereotypes of “feminine” appearance and mannerisms, they can actually become women. The obsessive sexual thrill they get makes them believe the fantasy is real. It’s just men violating women’s bodies and boundaries as usual, same shit, different day. It has nothing to do with “gender identity.” That’s just the alibi.

Autogynephile transgenderists put fetish before family

narcissistWhy is that so many men with the obsessive, autogynephiliac fantasy that they are “women trapped in men’s bodies” decide to bail out on their marriages, especially when they have young children at home? Why do they think that their kinky fetishizing is more important than their families’ well-being?

They are EXTREME NARCISSISTS. Their “gender identity” is based on erotic fantasies of themselves “as women” and masturbation! Nice “identity”!

This happens plenty often when there aren’t any children in the family. It also happens when the children are grown up. Very often, though, it seems that there are kids still living at home.

Sometimes these men leave their families completely; other times they put their families through the torture of “trying to make it work,” which seldom turns out well because the real woman in the marriage doesn’t want to fulfill the man’s fantasy of becoming a “lesbian,” help him go shopping, etc. and it’s usually not too long anyway before the dude is out looking for a boyfriend who will sweep him off his high-heeled size 13 feet in a whirlwind romantic adventure of epic sex role stereotyping. Until that happens, though, he usually claims that everything is really great and the family has adjusted well.

It’s a horrible experience for his wife, whether or not there are children. The young children of the tranny-man must also really be traumatized by his insane actions and behavior. Here are a few examples of these disgraceful fathers.

My need for transition
Why do I enjoy shopping in the women’s department? Why do I love dresses so much? Why am I so very feminine in my perceptions of myself? Why do I still love to look at myself in the mirror with a dress on and why do I have this overwhelming need to wear dresses and women’s clothing? Why did I suppress it so much and deny this part of myself? Why after all these years am I still dealing with this a seemingly innocent act of trying on one item of my sister’s clothing that has become a main focus in my life. Why do I feel I am a woman? I wish I had the answers. All I know is that I have feelings that are more common to girls. I feel I am a teenage girl looking forward to blossoming and enjoying becoming a young woman. These are strange words to hear from a middle aged male who is a husband and a father and has a life with responsibility and great pressure. I am not looking to escape. In fact I want to keep my family intact and still maintain my responsibility and still provide the love I have in my heart for both my wife and son. I have such tremendous feelings of guilt and I just don’t know what to do but I know if I don’t consider addressing these feelings and staying true to the course of transitioning I most certainly will die. I can not keep denying myself this wonderful gift of femininity. I need help and support and encouragement. I went for way too long hiding this and denying it and now I feel the floodgates have opened and it is my time. It is what I have always wanted in my life. The opportunity to express the true me. If I can’t do this then I will most certainly give up my hope of ever finding happiness and understanding who I am.

My husband’s sex change
He didn’t seem the same. He didn’t act the same. His values seemed to change along with his personality.

“What if you knew that doing this would destroy one or all of the children?” I asked him. Ice cold, the man I had once thought a wonderful father replied, “I would do it anyway.”

Of birthdays and presents
Sunday marked my first Second Birthday. It was the anniversary of my first time out in public as my true self. I celebrated by wearing my one and only pair of Victoria’s Secret panties, jeans and a plain T shirt. Then I got a large piece of my birthday cake from my other birthday. I sat down and watched the documentary ‘American Transgender” which I had recorded. The Itty Bitty Titty fairy also brought me a gift, sore and itchy boobs.

Later in the day we took the dog and the kids to the church carnival.
It’s called Fiesta with Friends. But this year it wasn’t much of a fiesta. We couldn’t pinpoint why but none of us felt any energy and excitement. Our boys had even gotten free tickets for the rides that they didn’t feel like using. Even the weather wouldn’t cooperate. It was overcast and grey. The only bright spot was our Corgi. It seemed like everyone had to come over and pet him.

I decided later that this carnival signified the end of part of all our lives. My daughter graduates high school and my older son moves on to a high school but one closer to our new home. We are pulling our youngest son out of the school because of the bullying and our increasing dissatisfaction with how the school has been run the last few years.

Don’t fight your true will
And, slowly, something strange happened. —I’m back home again, my real home where I belong—with my wife and children. My wife and I are more in love than we’ve ever been I believe. I’m home again and my wife and children accept me just as I am: as a woman. I’d not have believed that possible when I first returned to town.

I’ve been full-time about three months. I’ve been on hormones 9 weeks. The morning I voted in the presidential election, two days ago now, I overheard a hushed conversation: “That person’s name is ?!” Like they could not believe I was born in a male body.

But I had just showered and cleaned up—and I looked good.

Ted Prince and the miraculous bee-sting sex change
(from GenderTrender)

Autogynephilia: An underappreciated paraphilia

Lawrence AA. Autogynephilia: An underappreciated paraphilia. Adv Psychosom
Med. 2011;31:135-48.

Download article here: Lawrence-2011


Autogynephilia is defined as a male’s propensity to be sexually aroused by the thought of himself as a female. It is the paraphilia that is theorized to underlie transvestism and some forms of male-to-female (MtF) transsexualism. Autogynephilia encompasses sexual arousal with cross-dressing and cross-gender expression that does not involve women’s clothing per se. The concept of autogynephilia defines a typology of MtF transsexualism and offers a theory of motivation for one type of MtF transsexualism. Autogynephilia resembles a sexual orientation in that it involves elements of idealization and attachment as well as erotic desire. Nearly 3% of men in Western countries may experience autogynephilia; its most severe manifestation, MtF transsexualism, is rare but increasing in prevalence. Some theorists and clinicians reject the transsexual typology and theory of motivation derived from autogynephilia; their objections suggest a need for additional research. The concept of autogynephilia can assist clinicians in understanding some otherwise puzzling manifestations of nonhomosexual MtF transsexualism. Autogynephilia exemplifies an unusual paraphilic category called ‘erotic target identity inversions’, in which men desire to impersonate or turn their bodies into facsimiles of the persons or things to which they are sexually attracted.

Autogynephiles fetishize and crave man-made simulacra of “female” biology

An excerpt from Janice Raymond’s brilliant “The Transsexual Empire” (1979).

Finally, and I think most important, there are more male-to-constructed-female transsexuals because men are socialized to fetishize and objectify. The same socialization that enables men to objectify women in rape, pornography, and “drag” enables them to objectify their own bodies. In the case of the male transsexual, the penis is seen as a “thing” to be gotten rid of. Female body parts, specifically the female genitalia, are “things” to be acquired. Men have always fetishized women’s genitals. Breasts, legs, buttocks are all parts of a cultural fixation that reduces women not even to a whole objectified nude body but rather to fetishized parts of the female torso. The Venus de Milo symbolizes this as well as the fact that it has never been restored to its original integrity. “Cunt, ” “ass, ” “getting one’s rocks off, ” “balling, ” are all sexist slogans of this fetishized worldview where even “chicks” and “broads” are reduced to the barest essentials. Male-to-constructed-female transsexualism is only one more relatively recent variation on this theme where the female genitalia are completely separated from the biological woman and, through surgery, come to be dominated by incorporation into the biological man. Transsexualism is thus the ultimate, and we might even say the logical, conclusion of male possession of women in a patriarchal society. Literally, men here possess women.

Definitions of fetishism are revealing in this context. Webster’s Dictionary defines fetish in several ways: First, as an object believed among a primitive people to have magical power to protect or aid its owner; broadly: a material object regarded with superstitious or extravagant trust or reverence; an object of irrational reverence or obsessive devotion; an object or bodily part whose real or fantasied presence is psychologically necessary for sexual gratification and that is an object of fixation to the extent that it may interfere with complete sexual expression. Second, as a rite or cult of fetish worshipers. Third, fetish is simply defined as fixation. From these definitions, it is clear that the process of fetishization has two sides: objectification, and what might be referred to as worship in the widest sense. Objectification is largely accomplished by a process of fragmentation. The fetish is the fragmented part taken away from the whole, or better, the fetish is seen to contain the whole. It represents an attempt to grasp the whole. For example, breasts and legs in our society are fetish objects containing the essence of femaleness. Thus the fetish contains and by containing controls.

However, the other side of fetishization is worship or reverence for the fetish object. In primitive religions, fetish objects were worshiped because people were afraid of the power they were seen to contain. Therefore primitive peoples sought to control the power of the fetish by worshiping it and in so doing they confined it to its “rightful place. ” There was a recognition of a power that people felt they lacked and a constant quest in ceremonies and cults to invest themselves with the power of the fetish object. Thus to worship was also to control. In this way, objectification and worship are two sides of the same coin. In this sense transsexualism is fetishization par excellence— a twisted recognition on the part of some men of the creative capacities of the female spirit as symbolized and incarnated in the usurped female biology. This usurpation of female biology, of course, is limited to the artifacts of female biology (silicone breast implants, exogenous estrogen therapy, artificial vaginas, etc. ) that modem medicine has surgically and hormonally created. Thus transsexual fetishization is further limited not even to the real parts of the real whole, but to the artifactual parts of the artifactual whole.